happy saturday folks .
i want to carved the 2009's memories in this post as i fear i may lost this data in the future . i will carved it as vivid as possible .
2009 was a new year fo new me . i decided that i would not let ppl critize me n i would not live by ppl's opinion . fo the first time i want to be the real me . the end .
then , i found love . i can say i was deeply in love but it goes nowhere . the end .
since 2009 was my first-time senior year , i mean the second-most-senior in the hostel , life was so much fun . :) i hav a best fren since i was in form 1 . she's the only one left after the PMR , the other was neither kicked out or transfered . at first we were okay , n i really love her . after some time , she became so much busy . i understand , with the society and everything . she often became the school representetive . i tried to follow her flow , like trying to be with her every turun petang but she was so busy that i cant keep up with her . plus plus i felt neglected , u noe la ... i am a paranoaic . i dont really mix with ppl so pretty much she was my only best fren , the other was just fren . fren and bestfren do hav difference . i mean , u would share ur secrets n thoughts to ur BESTFREN , not FREN . usually it goes like that . and i feel lonely . but its okay . one things that hurt me the most is that when one of my fren told me that she told the class during the sivik class (if im not mistaken) that her bestfren is someone else , not me . i was so torned when i know it that i cried . but i dont remember when . i noe she have been around with her lately that year . but its becos they're doing the same job . n i was not around becos im not doing the same job . by that time , i was afraid n ashame to be around her . idk why so i keep menjauhkan diri dari dia .
at that time , ayu was my dormmate . so this one day , all of her bestfren ; umey and blablabla gathered in our dorm . well , gather with ayu of cos . i joined them . at first i was so quiet . idk wat to say as i fear i will tersalah cakap . LOL . then , that one weekend , mama umey brought KFC fo us , i mean fo them but they bring me along . thats a simplified story how i did hooked up with today's BB . :P
initially , i feel a little bit neglected but it fade as time move on . we've become so close to each other even sometimes or maybe most of the time our frenship was hit by a big storm . the end .
actually , this is the actual post . yg diatas tu mukadimah .
end of year , pretty much everybody was in the comfy zone since the EOY holiday was coming . so , banyak la yang terjadi . i admitted we brought a lot of benda haram . i mean , semua orang bawa bha juga . jangan blame kami saja . there was a bag of it . O.o' plus plus the hot pants and the spagheti strap . huh , man , we were out of control . lagi2 form 5 tinggal d paras bawah , kami la yg berkuasa (KONON) d paras atas .
did u noe the single bed we usually use in hostel ?? we combined 3 of it to produce a biiiiggg bed . we sleep ramai2 sana . :P bayangkan untuk 8 ppl . isnt it krezih ?? tapi masa tu rasa seronok cos sama kawan2 . our bed was the messiest in the hostel kali . haha . majalah bertempiaran , cadar ndak tegang , selimut di sana - sini . memang sandi la ~ i tell u . luckily , cik ayesha sangat la rajin melenting bila tempat kotor . :P dan cik ray sangat la rajin mengemas . LOL .
okeh , EOY was my sweet n sour becos of that (benda kat atas tu) dan juga masalah diri saya sendiri . ==' ppl say i changed . guess i did . but idc that time . only after some time i did care . malas maw cakap tapi , to be honest , 2009 has teached me a lot about life which is
- frenship do fade away unless both of the side working on it . it will not work if only the other side .
- u can be the real u if u wanted to be but tenguk2 la ... u are living around ppl , not by urself only .
- dont ever ever ever fell so hard fo somebody , becos ppl will move on .
- follow ur <3 with ur head directing it . hah !
- responsibility is not that easy to take care of .
- dan enjoy hidup . :P
during the eend of year 2009 , i went camping in Johor with cik syafirah . so we missed the EOY exam . omg , that moment was so suck okeh . can u imagine when everybody was enjoying waiting fo the EOY holiday while me n her hav to take the EOY exam ?? its not fair !! plus , we took the 3paper's subject in a row . maksudnya , chemistry P1 , P2 n P3 kami ambil terus dalam 1 masa . teda gaps okeh . ==' punya tension . sua la dalam bilik guru . susa maw bertanya . LOL . nvm . at least dapat jua no. 14 dalam form . :xoxoxoxo
2009 , our school attacked by the H1N1 virus . so , like the usual ~ we ot quarantined fo a week ! hah ! OMONA . we were all adding our muscle tissues jak time tu . :O makan , tidur , makan , tidur saja . bangun pagi = bila maw pegi makan lunch . lepas lunch pointless sampai la besuk balik . dan kami rajin night force . ndak tidur konon last - last aku sorang jak lagi yg tinggal . takut punya pasal , aku pun join zzzz . o.0' haha . siok la pula maw reminisce .
*i wish i could go back to the past n change it . but i must move on . .
i did not intend to hurt anyone by this post . i am only recording this fo the future reference . so plis , baca saja la . te payah bising - bising . nobodys perfect anyway . saya juga perlu meluahkan perasaan . fullstop .
dan minta maaf kalau tersalah cakap .
