day 2-my crush

2010??i have 2 crushes.both broke my heart.

But I don’t really care about the first one.the second one really made me gone hella.it was a few weeks before SPM and all form5 were combined in the library.okayy,that was usual.i studied in the APD room.a closed room so it would be more peaceful though its just the same as the outside.so,there were only certain people that always study in the APD room.one of them was him.okayy,I don’t recognize his presence earlier.but there was this one time that I think I realized I have fallen for him was when we were sitting outside the APD room and had a conversation like ‘soalan tentang kehidupan’.i asked him ‘why should you be in a relationship if you cant be loyal??’ obviously I don’t remember.there were plenty of us there.so u all figure la sendiri siapa.

He offered me a book.a business-like book.he wanted me to read it.aku ikut jak la.Laugh Out Loud.well I never manage to finish it due to the SPM.sampai sekarang belum habes dan it is still in my hand.i wanted to meet him on the ‘sirih pulang ke gagang’ ceremony but I cant find him.sedey akuuu.

saja jak aku letak ni.untuk elak EMO.tak boleh sedey-sedey tau,we cant go back to the past.

When I confirmed that I really have a crush on him,I kind of realize that he was close to my friend.i mean girlfriend.i was jealous.its stupid but true.they always talk,walk together and so on.but I calmed myself and yakinkan diri yang dorang tiada apa-apa.seriously I thought he was SINGLE.but then,I found out that they are dating.OH MY GOD.i cant believe it.

But I seem to don’t care about it.i looked forward on every opportunity to meet him . J in the dining hall,in the main hall,while he was playing futsal,when he was outside his dorm(damn I’ve seen his abs live!) and tried to talk to him as frequent as possible.but I don’t wanna make it look obvious so I tau la macam mana nak cover.

Okayyy la.cukup.tak best la kalau tak ada RAHSIA kan??nobody know who he was.only A FEW knew.hah,tak payah la susah-susah cari.sekolah sudah habes pun.its not like we’re gonna be together juga kan??but.....

never lose hope.

to him,be happy with your love man.

Day 2 challenge,mission accomplished!

today is 2011 !

Hello readers , te amo . ©

Today I woke up on 9.30 something. straight went to freshen my face.(malas sangat nak mandi) and then done the house chores.then blablabla,I don’t know and mom came home.

Mum asked if I want to join them going to town to cut my sibling’s hairs.of course I do babe.i don’t know why but I always having trouble when im wearing shawl.like this one time you could see my backs so I have to refix the shawl constantly.and just now I have to tarik-tarik  the shawl supaya shawl tu tak longgar betul dan lipat-lipat tepi shawl tu.grrrr..apakah aku terkena ‘sumpahan shawl’??Laugh Out Loud.

Apapun,keadaan dipekan adalah sangat busy.setiap shopping mall(kedai baju) yang wujud penuh sesak dengan orang-orang yang busted last minute baru mau beli uniform sekolah,kasut sekolah yang layak dipanggil sneakers dan beg sekolah yang kilat-kilat. J jadi sekali lagi berasa sangat rimas untuk memilih baju-baju serta shawl-shawl yang diperagakan walaupun harganya murah.i am so sorry but I cursed everybody that blocked my way.hoho.panas baran bha aku ne.but but but I can hide it very well.dont worry.i choose what I want to show.

Mom want to buy something so I waited with my sister in front of milimewa.hoho.banyak insan-insan dikenali yang aku jumpa woo.junior aku la paling banyak. J

I bought shampoo,a shirt and REMAJA.habes terus $$$.

Lepas tu singgah d G-MART.im not being bitchy or whore-ry but the guy in the 2^nd floor was handsome. J forget it.aku puji seja.salah meh??ndak kan…

Aduhai,kenapalah kalau kita nampak lelaki hensem kita boleh senyum tapi kalau nampak pilak memang nak jeling pun  enggan??

Hello,mengakulah.kamu pun macam saya juga kan??manusia biasa.manusia biasa suka benda-benda yang yang cantik tahu.macam lelaki hensem. J

Ray came to my house.kesian dia tunggu saturang sana pondok bas.apapun kira 0-0 la sebab aku gorengkan dia samosa.walaupun instant punya,yang penting IKHLAS kan?? J lepas tu,kami main buaian sekejap.panik dia takut putus tu ayunan kalau dia yang naik.Laugh Out Loud.bila suda puas,kami pegi check tu hounted house dekat rumah aku.(bahaya oh kawasan perumahan aku,ada rumah hantu terus ada rumah orang gila lagi) kempunan si ray mau pegi sungai sebab tu pagar berkunci.penat bejalan,kami limping-limpang dibilik aku.share-share story.sikit lagi aku mau tetidur bila dia tiba-tiba semangat mau kasi eyeshadow mata aku.heee…aku okayyyy seja ni.maka hilanglah rasa mengantuk secara automatik.sempat lagi bah dia online guna laptopku.apapun,siok amat time kami bermakeup tu sebab diiringi dengan music dari media playerku.ray bilang “macam dalam movie pula sebab ada muzik,” aku ketawa-ketawa seja.betul juga kan??

I was supposed to cook her dinner tapi ndak sempat la,dia ndak drive sendiri okay,kena ambil oleh ayahnya encik kaipin.heee…

Dan sampai sekarang aku masih tertunggu-tunggu text dia.lain yang aku harap,lain yang datang.EMO.

Okayyy la,panjang sudah aku melalut ni.good night readers.

Azwa mislan.

why did they created facebook ? to stalk every single human being on EARTH , dats why .

ehrrrhem .

become a STALKER sekejap . (:(:

my god , gorgeous as usual !